I need to will stop chasing my false beliefs about success.
Success is not having money in the bank, having a huge mansion, having a a building named after me, or having a legacy of being the greatest.

Success is being financially independent, being part of a loving home and family, giving back to people and places that have helped me grow, and leaving behind a legacy of helpfulness and kindness. 

To get there, I will remember that I am a humble servant. I was put on this earth to help others. I want to achieve greatness so that I can have a positive impact on people’s lives.

Now, I  understand that money, glory, and material goods are not important. What is important is keeping my purpose in mind. I must always remember my purpose. As long as I remember this, continue to work hard, show kindness and compassion, then those other things will follow.

Last of all, I need to remember that I did not get here on my own. I had help, and a lot of it. I am here because of the guidance and sacrifices of the people who care about me. I owe them a huge debt and I plan on paying it forward.

I didn’t realize how unprepared I was until I got destroyed by the Physics diagnostic test. It’s been a while since I’ve taken physics, and I haven’t taken E&M yet. My mechanics skills are rusty and my E&M knowledge is nonexistent.  Not to mention I was a fucktard in highschool, so I didn’t learn any of this back then lololol.

I’m at a disadvantage here when it comes to physics. But I can honestly say that this won’t be a problem. If anything, it’s just another reason for me to study harder, work smarter, and practice more for the MCAT in August. I want to take the test once, knock it out of the park, get a 30+, and be done with it.

Time to go MIA and devote my summer to MCAT review. It’s not how I was hoping to spend my summer, but it’ll pay off in the long run. I’ll thank myself later.